wow
i am about to enbark on a epic journey of the pristine, the strange, and the mysterious. i feel almost as if i havent embraced the inportance of what i am about to do, this new found independance and freedom will overwhelm me no doubt. i am now purely subject to my own decisions, there is no one to back me up once i cross the threshold into this new life. because i have relied so much on the dependancy of others it is absolutely fundamental i make all my decisions with absolute awareness of the possible outcomes. no more excuses, no more life lines, no more credit upon my behalf. it now a matter of how i handle my paintbrush, and how steady i can keep my hand from slipping. recent events have struck a new tone of seriousness in my life, my priorities have shifted practically over night, its inportant that i must add to the fact that the person who i am now will cease to be in the coming few months. this fact indeed frightens me or my ego more precisely and i am fully aware that the transition will not be faint. i need to keep myself humbled and flexible to embrace the new yet proud and rigid to preserve my integrity, because it is my future that is at stake, and ill be damned if i let it fall freely to the entropic forces that be.
i am excited to meet new friends, to explore new worlds, to obtain more knowledge, and to apply that knowledge. i want to master my full potential to become the self sustaining, determined man i was born to be. i must be strong during times of deppresion for i know that they will pass, i must embrace the times of joy for they too will also pass.
focus
integrity
humility
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